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hey pplz, its me again....


*Sigh*

I thought i could spend a lot of time this week with Yang, but ....

Question . . . Am i too bothersome? Am i the type of gf that is SO controlive? if it is ... please, anyone tell me.

i'm feeling so left out nowadays, not by my pals or family, its Yang......

i dunno if i should be writing this, but so that i could be the person everyone knows me by, i think i should.

ToYang: i'm sorry if you don like what you see here, i'm really sorry... i guess i just needed to let go......


For so long, i've been thinking to myself, whether i'm a good gf, whether Yang would be happy with the things i do for him. i hope he does.

I know he has sacrificed alot for me, and i appreciate that but, the sacrifices he makes are too risky and always leaves me in guilt.

He quited Christian Fellowship comitee cos of me.

Sometimes i think to myself, was it the wrong thing to do. . . being with him. . . he was so happy those days where were just friends, but now he has to put up with his mom, his church, and the people who knows him.

Do you wish we had fallen in love? So deeply towards one another, just being trapped by this thing called the forbidden love of 2 religion.

I wont be able to stand if i was the one, who stopped you and prevented you from your happiness.

For now, all my wish is just to spend as much time with you as possible. But i don't wanna be the controlive gf therefore i will sacrifice spending time with you for that moment, though i know, we can never be together, no matter how much it hurts and no matter how much i love you.

All i want is your happiness.


Are you happy?