Over. . .

It has been a year 4 months a week and 2 days now since Yang and i have been together, but , as off last Tuesday its all over.

The days of being together just for the sake of each others happiness are all gone. i have to admit it that painfully, it was all for the best. Although now all i wish is as if i had never asked for us to brake it off.

I still remember the days, where i used to sneak out of my house to see him. We would spend the day remembering our past together how we would joke around in Ninjutsu class, Thinking about what we would do when we're older, and even plan for how many kids we were gonna have. We never thought about anything else. Religion was never the problem between the both of us, as if we have totally forgotten what was there waiting for us.

My parents grew to love him very much, they were expecting a lot to come for the two of us. They'd always tease me and make fun of me but always comfortable with the both of us. I respect my parents and love them for giving me this kind of support. Unfortunately, it wasn't the same for his side of the family. His family never knew of us being together and we manage to make it stay that way for sometime. I was a student in his mother's Math class i wasn't her best student after everything although I've always strived to be the best so that it might be easier for her to accept me.

One day, his mother found out and was upset at the thought of losing her son to me, a Muslim. I was devastated of course, knowing i can never be with him, but he told me that his parents was going to put it all aside until my exam (SPM) was done so that it wouldn't give me any stress. Little did i know, he was actually lying to me. His parents wanted us to brake it off ever since they found out.

On the 15th of December at exactly 12:13am

I asked for the brake, and it was the most devastating moment of my life. We painfully accepted it for i think its best he obeys his mother and it wouldn't be fair for me to tear up a family.

But it still makes me wonder. . . .

Is religion made to hurt people???

Is religion made to separate people??

Is god a sadist???? Did he create all this religions so that people can fight and kill others???
Did he create religion so that people can hate and despise everyone just cos they are not in the same religion. . . .

Did he make religion so that people can't love?????


Will someone explain to me. . . .

i know there will be a lot of people who is gonna say that i blame god for my own reasons. . . . i dunno. i apologise if anybody feels so. . . .

Anyway

To Yang: i still love no matter what. And I'll be waiting if we ever get the chance again. . . .

KITTENS FOR ADOPTION!!!!!!

Name: Baby

Age: probably 10 days old

Sex: Female

Feeding: have to feed with milk every 3-6 hours. CANNOT skip a meal for she might die!

Bathe: Not necessary till she's 6 months plus. after she poops just use wet tissue to clean her.
Use wet tissue to wipe her after eating so that the milk doesn't stick to her body.
constantly use wet tissue to wipe her eyes.
Warmth: She needs the warmth, Either keep her close to your body or put a lamp above her.

P.s: You need to keep her warm!!!! I will give you the milk for free to keep feeding her. This one needs an adoption as soon as possible.






Name: Smitzenburg

Age: 2 months old

Sex: Male

Feeding: Just give cat food and he'll eat it by himself.

Bathe: Not neccesary until he's 6 months plus. he will lick himself clean.

Info: Was suffering from minge and fungal disease Minge is a disease that make the cat feels itchy and maybe fatal, he is now recovering from that disease with the jab from the vet and in a week or two he will be more than fine.



Anybody interested or for more info please contact Me Mas Marlena Mohamad @ 016-2091728.

All these kittens just need a loving family and a home... would you be that guardian angel for them?


Note: These Kittens are gonna be given away for TOTALLY FREE!!!

Here's to a great kitten.

Hey again guys,

Yes i apologize but this is another emo post.
Its about my kitten Chewy, he passed away early yesterday morning because of a motorcycle who knocked him off and left him to die a quiet death. .

Early that morning when i had my sahur, i already felt that something bad was gonna happen, i didn't know it had anything to do with the kittens. So early that morning as usual i played with them, fed them and snuggled chewy and hugged Belle then i went to get ready for school.

In class i still had that bad feeling but i didn't know what it was about, so i continued my day as usual. I talked so much about how adorable Chewy is and how i love to hug him when its cold outside and how he would purr in my ear or sleep on my arm, merajuk when he's upset, and sometimes kiss me on my lips just because i care for him.

While i'm typing this my heart is aching so much on how much i miss him so dearly, and later last night, i flipped through old photos and videos of him and felt like he didn't die at all.

My mother, once a cat hater, but now she couldn't stand the pain of losing Chewy. She told me she almost broke down when she heard the news when early that morning she was still playing with him. Same goes with my father, he was heartbroken when he had to bury Chewy with his own hands. He kept repeating that " i thought he was sleeping, he looked like he's sleeping! i can't believe that he's gone..."

And here i was, crying my eyes out thinking that he was just so young, but when my dad told his friend about Chewy, He only answered this. "This is the 7th month of the Chinese calender which usually Diana (my mother) would have an accident or broken bones, So what your cat did was actually sacrificing himself, to save Diana. . ."

My dad couldn't take it, although knowing its unlikely but the thought of it was enough to make my dad drown in his tears. My dad was touched although the fact that it maybe a lie.

Anyway this is all i can say about Chewy and i really hope that he didn't die. Cos' i still wanna feel his warmth when i hug him, annoy him till he squeaks, and love him and give him a proper home, I'm really sorry Chewy, for being such a bad owner. . . . . i guess i'm not cut out to be a pet owner after all.

BACK FROM THE DEAD!!!!

Yo yo people!!!

welllllll~ some people might already know that i'm back from being sick. . . again. .

=.=

from Mondays big HOOHAA!

well i'm fine, nothing big to be worried about.

I don't have H1N1

just common fever, flu, sore throat etc

things that nobody should be worried of ^^

Anyway, lets not talk about all that no shall we,

My BIG BIG day is tmr i really cant wait.

i've been studying real hard for tomorrows exam too and i cant afford to slack off

OH

i almost forgot!

This year MPT5 from SMK Seafield REEKS!!!!!

so~

Me with help from comitee members in the entire form 5 of SMK Seafield joined together,

WE ARE GONNA MAKE THIS YEAR THE BEST PROM SMK SEAFIELD EVER HAD!!!!!

The theme is gonna be masqurade which is gonna be cool and mysterious!!

hahah

Just thinking about this is making me so excited, XDDDD

Well i really need all the help i can get to make this work

GOOD LUCK THEN!!

p.s

these are pics of my cats :) for fun

This is Chewy :D

This is Belle she's the princess that only grooms herself 24/7 ":)

BACK FROM CHICKENPOX!!!!!

YO people!!

long time no blog yo! so ya as everyone know i was down with chickenpox ^^ hahaha what great timing huh.......

And when i say that i mean WHAT WORST TIMING EVER!!!!!

I worked so hard and organised project burger and in the end it was cancle

...

i felt terrible.

I'm really really sorry to everyone who was looking forward to project burger

anyway, i'm back and fine as ever despite the holes on my face haha

and as soon as i got back,

i heard that,

a classmate threw a table at someone,

prefect election day was over,

there were a few cases of H1N1 in school,

the school found a couple of puppies,

&

info on prom is out

Talk about missing out on things ^^

haahah sorry there aren't any photos

YET!!

haha so sit tight and don't worry

i'll give you guys pics

TEEHEEEEEHEEE

buhbye now ^^

lovely memories ^^

WoW haha

Well since my buddies tell me that my blog is so dull and only filled with emo-ness, i'm gonna write a non emo post this time and hopefully continue from here ^^

So anyway as everyone knows Campfire night was last Saturday (20/06/2009) and it was awesome it was my first campfire night ^^ hahaha anyway we'll come back to that later i wanna explain how awesome my day was

It started in the morning when i went for my weekly martial arts training (Ninjutsu) ^^

Usually i try not to go for class cause its so boring nowadays =.=" hehe anyway this time i had to go cause it was the inter-school competition and as president i have to go and "Tunjuk muka". so ya i went but an excuse to skip training i brought my art project that was due on Monday (Today) so in the end i didn't really do much on my seni project but instead i was talking to Xin dee about how we hated the seni project ^^ haha

later in the afternoon it started to rain heavily and the ninjustu students as usual =.= trained under the rain and to save my arts stuff from getting wet I SACRIFICED MY ASS XD...... literally (covering arts project by putting my ass and my back out at the rain)

after everything Yang brought me to a quiet place behind the makmal computer and i told him of 1 of my wishes and he asked what was it.....

i told him .....

to be kissed under the rain ^^ hahahaha like in a movie you know hahahah

after that he carried me into the rain while i was screaming for him to put me down then as he put me down he kissed me XD haha

then....

we rushed for cover hahahaha

Then later that evening as i was getting ready for campfire night i started sneezing so i tried not to be obvious to my parents if not they'll never let me go xD

After all the performance came the dancing hahaha (for more info on CFN i suggest u see kisu's blog its more detailed)

i was already half dead when we were dancing ^^ sneezing and headache but i promised myself "i'm gonna party hard, then i'm gonna sleep hard, then i'm gonna work hard on my seni" but by the time i got home i was too sick to even move so after showering i just went to bed...

but..

the next morning i got super sick with flu, fever and cough but thats another story haha

well i guess thats all for now i hope its not that emo anymore ^^

ta tah~

Ying...... i miss you.....

This post is for my dear sweet Ying........

my kitten that ran away because of a selfish inconsiderate thought of my "dear lovely father" with his selfishness and JEALOUSY over a tiny little kitten who does noone any harm.....


It all began last Thursday 11th of June 2009, the exact date where my parents wanted to go to penang for a business trip, and draged me along with the excuse of meeting my relatives, but in the end they cancled all their business meetings just to push the blame at each other.

So on Thursday morning, as i woke up out of bed to see my darling kitten who i "sayang " so bloody much as my own daughter, i called out her name and no replies.....

usually i'd get a meow or her coming out to me for food and she'd lie on my leg begging for food but on that day i didn't get a single reply. i looked everywhere and i panicked but in the end my sister Za found her under the car, frightened. When i took her out of the car and attempt to feed her she struggled and got away from me and i noticed that she was limping thats where my mom promised me that she'd take her to the vet so i was relieved.

After treating her my we packed and left for penang and Yang helped me feed her 3 times everyday which i am so very thankful.

And so, after 4 days in penang we came back to see Ying out of her cage which she wasn't supposed to be because of her leg, the place was a mess and Ying looked very sick and tired.

The next day, my dad and my sis brought her to the vet and in the end the doctor said that she was just dehydrated and having the flu. I have to say i was pretty relieved because it wasn't the "Hook worm" that killed my earlier kitten Riko.

I stayed up all night that day thinking of Ying and my art project, so yes, i did not sleep that night. So when i was finishing up my arts project she meowed and begged to get out of the cage, so i let her out and let her sleep on my door mat where she liked, but later that night when it was around 2am i went and checked on her but she wasn't there.
i went around my entire neighbourhood with a stupid nokia phone torchlight that doesn't really work......

The next morning my brother found her in the drain shivering. he took her out and passed her to me and i held her tight so that she could stop shivering but as i wrapped her around a cloth my bus came and i had to put her in the cage.....

.....

then yesterday (tuesday), my dad so selfishly let Ying out of her cage and let her walk away while i was in tuition...

and she hasn't eaten all day yesterday

and i haven't seen till today.........